Your disapproval means the world to me.
Random lack of self hatred.
I have no idea what I’m doing.
I’ve found the only dreams you cannot haunt, are those lovely chemical dreams.
-when you send sexy texts of what you want to do to me until I get there
-when you say ‘that was the longest wait ever’ and then kiss me hard
-when you push me up against the wall, grabbing my ass
-when you nibble my ear while you undress me
-when you throw me down on the bed and tease me
-when you start fucking me hard
-when you pull my hair and moan lightly in my ear
-when you make me cum 3 times in 2 hours
-when you snuggle up to me after and kiss me sweetly
This afternoon was much needed and so goddamn amazing. Thank you, the love of my life.
Until I find out if I can still have children.
I’m trying not to overreact. I don’t know how to act.
Back when I had confidence.
I’ve never felt more ashamed.
I accidentally made my hair look pretty dang cool…
